Saturday, December 31, 2016
Thursday, December 22, 2016
I pray that people will stop bullying people who are vulnerable or are in minority races. Everyone has a heart, a head and a soul. No one should feel less worthy of, even when they are in a difficult situation in life.
I dislike people who bully those who don't look a certain way or behave a certain way. They don't know that they themselves are lost too. I remembered watching a movie of a rich man who had this stalker who stalks his wife. He blamed on this stalker, saying he is a weirdo etc...
Later in the story, it was said that he used to bully this guy when he was younger. People who bully don't get that the future of the victim being bullied might have a tougher road in life because of that lens being blurred by these big bullies because the big bullies are the ones that can influence the world. They could be lawyers, doctors, people who are well of.
When a person's lense is being destroyed by bullies, the whole world start to think that the weirdo is really a weirdo and his or her life start to become one too.
Those bullies judge. In fact, they do have a lot of power but God is more powerful than them. I used to feel the least powerful person in the world but than I realised why I felt that. The world was a mean world and that was why God got me prepared. My softness was being stepped by people. I start to dread life. Somehow, he was giving me the strength.
Life is a mental battle, The foolish ones battle it physically.
I dislike people who bully those who don't look a certain way or behave a certain way. They don't know that they themselves are lost too. I remembered watching a movie of a rich man who had this stalker who stalks his wife. He blamed on this stalker, saying he is a weirdo etc...
Later in the story, it was said that he used to bully this guy when he was younger. People who bully don't get that the future of the victim being bullied might have a tougher road in life because of that lens being blurred by these big bullies because the big bullies are the ones that can influence the world. They could be lawyers, doctors, people who are well of.
When a person's lense is being destroyed by bullies, the whole world start to think that the weirdo is really a weirdo and his or her life start to become one too.
Those bullies judge. In fact, they do have a lot of power but God is more powerful than them. I used to feel the least powerful person in the world but than I realised why I felt that. The world was a mean world and that was why God got me prepared. My softness was being stepped by people. I start to dread life. Somehow, he was giving me the strength.
Life is a mental battle, The foolish ones battle it physically.
Monday, December 19, 2016
Next year, I will work harder than this year. I realised that God does not want us to bet on life and people. Some people think that their money issues can be solved by finding a rich husband or wife.
It could happen but we are still in some kind of need for something even when that happens.
I finally understand the feeling of being in a helpless situation, a feeling of a beggar. It is a really horrible feeling and I hope that no one will ever feel that way.
Even my teaching job feels like I'm not working hard enough. I realised that riches come to us for us to solve something. Holidays come for people to salvage others. It is not just a leisure time for our selves but a time to give back to society.
I don't know if riches will always come to me because I know that one day my mission might be complete and I would need more riches again.
I want to solve more issues with my brain but I don't know what mission I am working towards to.
I pray for beggars to find riches and people who already have riches to give back because when they give back, they are helping themselves to realise that money might not belong to them. It belongs to people who need them more.
I pray that I will be able to help myself and others to realise that money is not everything. People can gamble all their savings away in just one night. Perhaps it really don't belong to them. It belongs to someone else who needs it more.
It could happen but we are still in some kind of need for something even when that happens.
I finally understand the feeling of being in a helpless situation, a feeling of a beggar. It is a really horrible feeling and I hope that no one will ever feel that way.
Even my teaching job feels like I'm not working hard enough. I realised that riches come to us for us to solve something. Holidays come for people to salvage others. It is not just a leisure time for our selves but a time to give back to society.
I don't know if riches will always come to me because I know that one day my mission might be complete and I would need more riches again.
I want to solve more issues with my brain but I don't know what mission I am working towards to.
I pray for beggars to find riches and people who already have riches to give back because when they give back, they are helping themselves to realise that money might not belong to them. It belongs to people who need them more.
I pray that I will be able to help myself and others to realise that money is not everything. People can gamble all their savings away in just one night. Perhaps it really don't belong to them. It belongs to someone else who needs it more.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
Father was saying, He pray that warriors of God will risk it all. He didn't exactly say that but thats my interpretation.
I'll risk it all till the day I die. The more you risk, the more attention you get but that does not equate to a person wanting to be an attention seeker.
I really admire people who are really spiritual. The real spiritual ones seem to be nobel in people's eyes but I see them as warriors. People who don't look at people with lust but they look at people with their admiration for their strength to follow what is invisible (God)
I was thinking to myself. People who seek God are like back to the olden days whereby people are alive in the chess game. Theres like soldier, king, queen, etc..Its like a chess game coming alive, just that we in this modern day do not have armours and swords.
In fact, all cultures are kinda intertwined in our way of looking at fighting for ourselves. Different cultures just express it in different ways but we all have the same kind of vision which is to be nobel.
I'll risk it all till the day I die. The more you risk, the more attention you get but that does not equate to a person wanting to be an attention seeker.
I really admire people who are really spiritual. The real spiritual ones seem to be nobel in people's eyes but I see them as warriors. People who don't look at people with lust but they look at people with their admiration for their strength to follow what is invisible (God)
I was thinking to myself. People who seek God are like back to the olden days whereby people are alive in the chess game. Theres like soldier, king, queen, etc..Its like a chess game coming alive, just that we in this modern day do not have armours and swords.
In fact, all cultures are kinda intertwined in our way of looking at fighting for ourselves. Different cultures just express it in different ways but we all have the same kind of vision which is to be nobel.
Friday, December 16, 2016
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Today I decided to go to Changi Airport and took a bus home.
The bus took a route that I never seen for a long time. It was my childhood all flashed passed me by my side view. I saw Hougang Ave 1. That was where I lived, blk 239, the exact block. I saw the remote park that I used to go with my primary school friend.
The energy felt the same. I felt kinda sad because our past is like sufferings. The sufferings we faced when we were a kid. Most of the past were not so pleasant for me but it made me a stronger person. I felt like there was a lot of hardship when I passed by. It was funny. 'Unwritten' by Natasha Bedingfeld played when I reached Lorong Ah Soo road. I remembered the old bumpy non- air con school bus I used to sit when I was in primary school and the humble bus uncle that reminded me of a nice monkey (oops)
I remembered everything. The rest is still unwritten. Its funny. I lived on the 13th floor and today is 13 December and I just turned 28 to see my past life. As if everything was mapped out for me to start anew again in my new birth.
The bus took a route that I never seen for a long time. It was my childhood all flashed passed me by my side view. I saw Hougang Ave 1. That was where I lived, blk 239, the exact block. I saw the remote park that I used to go with my primary school friend.
The energy felt the same. I felt kinda sad because our past is like sufferings. The sufferings we faced when we were a kid. Most of the past were not so pleasant for me but it made me a stronger person. I felt like there was a lot of hardship when I passed by. It was funny. 'Unwritten' by Natasha Bedingfeld played when I reached Lorong Ah Soo road. I remembered the old bumpy non- air con school bus I used to sit when I was in primary school and the humble bus uncle that reminded me of a nice monkey (oops)
I remembered everything. The rest is still unwritten. Its funny. I lived on the 13th floor and today is 13 December and I just turned 28 to see my past life. As if everything was mapped out for me to start anew again in my new birth.
Monday, December 12, 2016
There are too many pretty and good looking people for ego to even exist actually
I'm glad I'm neither pretty nor ugly. I'm just a human and I'm thankful that God made me me.
When people start to talk about you, thats because they are placing bets on their ideas on you, hoping that it will come back in return in some ways. A bet on Idealogy, something like gambling in Casino. Hehe
So if people start talking about you, it might not mean its about your appearance. They've got nothing on you if you're a good person. They just want to bet on you for their own opinions and own expression.
I'm glad I'm neither pretty nor ugly. I'm just a human and I'm thankful that God made me me.
When people start to talk about you, thats because they are placing bets on their ideas on you, hoping that it will come back in return in some ways. A bet on Idealogy, something like gambling in Casino. Hehe
So if people start talking about you, it might not mean its about your appearance. They've got nothing on you if you're a good person. They just want to bet on you for their own opinions and own expression.
Thursday, December 1, 2016
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
Sunday, November 27, 2016
Wednesday, November 16, 2016
Monday, November 14, 2016
I was just contemplating and wondering why some people love to gossip about others. Then I realised. They are influenced by society. I felt that another word for 'society' is learning how to break others. The reason why I said that is because society is about money and once money is involved, everything is about competition.
Sometimes when I'm down, I look out the window. Today was funny. I saw a poster that says, 'Jesus loves you' on my train journey.
You know sometimes when you're in the MRT train and you don't see any love around you. Everyone is glued to their handphones, as if there will be love given through their phones I felt.
People don't know how to be humans and that is why people follow society's thoughts.
I've learnt a lot from being a freelance. Thank you Lord for paving my own path.
Sometimes when I'm down, I look out the window. Today was funny. I saw a poster that says, 'Jesus loves you' on my train journey.
You know sometimes when you're in the MRT train and you don't see any love around you. Everyone is glued to their handphones, as if there will be love given through their phones I felt.
People don't know how to be humans and that is why people follow society's thoughts.
I've learnt a lot from being a freelance. Thank you Lord for paving my own path.
Friday, November 11, 2016
I came down the steps. There was no handles going down the invisible stairs. I came down step by step and met souls along the way. I didn't know who they were but I only vaguely remember how they look in gameboy form. As I entered into this coloured realm which is what we called life, experiences start to reveal to me.
The world is like the universe, cold and lonely. I think that we are only at the start of life. The story has just started only. Life is nothing without these encounters I had when I was going down the stairs.
Answers are around you. That is why God says treat and love others more than you love yourself because life is nothing without these encounters. There is no story without these encounters. Life after all is about bondages.
People critic Donald Trump a lot. I don't really read the politics etc... but I can tell that he is a good father. I had this dream that I was a baby in his house. He had nice wall embellishment. Lush decor and goldness. A feeling of Luxury. Donald Trump seem to air lots of negativity about people in the press. Its a fact that life has many stereotypes and maybe he has had bad encounters. I don't think he meant it in general masses. What I felt was a sense of protection when I was that 'baby' under Donald Trump's care in my dream. I believed he do have a good daddy heart.
I believe in dreams - that there is a message in it.
I don't say I support Donald or Hilary but I say that I believe that there can still be goodness in this world with a rule of Donald. It might not be good to every race and country but step by step things will get better for all races I felt.
Sometimes I cry when I see the meaning of destiny. It means that some people will lose the race and get sucked into the black hole.
Sometimes I feel like what a person does or say could affect another person in a negative way but when I see the effects of hatred, I become soft again because God punishes those who affects his salted kingdom.
I wished more people could see that their behaviours though feels trivial do affect the people around them. The more people aren't open to changes, the bigger the ripple detriment effect to people who are trying to survive being good.
Sometimes I feel like what a person does or say could affect another person in a negative way but when I see the effects of hatred, I become soft again because God punishes those who affects his salted kingdom.
I wished more people could see that their behaviours though feels trivial do affect the people around them. The more people aren't open to changes, the bigger the ripple detriment effect to people who are trying to survive being good.
Thursday, November 10, 2016
Most people see beauty in women.
The rare ones can spot real beauty.
What is real beauty?
My definition of beauty is the path you took to come to where you are now. What's around u doesn't define your true beauty. How gracefully your soul came to where you are today would eventually define the beauty that you have.
Sunday, November 6, 2016
Thursday, November 3, 2016
I'm beginning to understand myself. Thank you world for making it better for me.
My life felt like it was filled with noise around me. I'm a musician so I'm pretty sensitive to it. Now, I'm able to block whats bad and be myself.
The priest said, 'Those with innocent hearts will get to see God'
Last time I did not get this statement. Now, I finally understand what he meant. He meant that you get to see the kingdom of God, not literally see God. Kingdom meaning the people who belong under his reign.
My life felt like it was filled with noise around me. I'm a musician so I'm pretty sensitive to it. Now, I'm able to block whats bad and be myself.
The priest said, 'Those with innocent hearts will get to see God'
Last time I did not get this statement. Now, I finally understand what he meant. He meant that you get to see the kingdom of God, not literally see God. Kingdom meaning the people who belong under his reign.
Wednesday, November 2, 2016
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Monday, October 31, 2016
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Some people are bad because they want to handle good danger.
Some people are bad because they are ignorant what is the consequence of it
I've seen the fruits of so many women. Some women betray me because their ego take over them and they think that I'm getting the limelight. Like 'Nerve' the movie, they want to overtake the biggest player.
There is terror in this world because everyone wants to partake in this game.
There is critic in the world because most people take life as a game. It is not a fake game. I wished I knew what life is but I don't know myself.
I just know that God wants more and more people partake in this equal battlefield of 'nerve', a real game. Those who take it as a fake game will one day realise their ignorance. Don't play with God. God is playing with us.
I truly believe he is building his own kingdom through finding lost bondages and reconnecting them again. I believe that there is a greater purpose in this world other than companies and businesses.
I pray that people can see that God has a greater map. I pray that his kingdom will grow.
Some people are bad because they are ignorant what is the consequence of it
I've seen the fruits of so many women. Some women betray me because their ego take over them and they think that I'm getting the limelight. Like 'Nerve' the movie, they want to overtake the biggest player.
There is terror in this world because everyone wants to partake in this game.
There is critic in the world because most people take life as a game. It is not a fake game. I wished I knew what life is but I don't know myself.
I just know that God wants more and more people partake in this equal battlefield of 'nerve', a real game. Those who take it as a fake game will one day realise their ignorance. Don't play with God. God is playing with us.
I truly believe he is building his own kingdom through finding lost bondages and reconnecting them again. I believe that there is a greater purpose in this world other than companies and businesses.
I pray that people can see that God has a greater map. I pray that his kingdom will grow.
Friday, October 28, 2016
Ego is another nature of stopping growth because they think that they are at their best already.
I notice my hairiness retract guys around me. Its like a mechanism of putting people off. I'm glad I'm different because I dislike attention.
Some Girls think that I'm a competitor. I'm not. I just love creativity. I don't like to 'compete' with people. I just love to embrace beauty and all things bizarre.
People are mostly interested in appearance. All that happening around the world. It all narrows down to people around you and how you decipher the things around u.
I notice my hairiness retract guys around me. Its like a mechanism of putting people off. I'm glad I'm different because I dislike attention.
Some Girls think that I'm a competitor. I'm not. I just love creativity. I don't like to 'compete' with people. I just love to embrace beauty and all things bizarre.
People are mostly interested in appearance. All that happening around the world. It all narrows down to people around you and how you decipher the things around u.
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Red Tail Bar has a Singaporean flavour topped with Modern furnishings. Chef Kar Meng comes up with amazing dishes that keeps you craving for more.
You would love the cocktails they serve and the salted egg chicken skin. It will sum up your Singapore experience. Definitely worth a try popping by here for some drinks and catch up with friends. Its also great for tourists to feel like you had a taste of Singapore in the best comfortable setting. What makes it so special is that it has a universal feeling and I felt I've stepped into a new modern bar of the future.
The world is beginning to be kinder to me
Its funny. Last time I felt like the world was against me
Our lives is like a stage. The world knows what we do
People think they can get away with things. But the truth lies with people.
People know every single dirt and truth and doings. The world is smarter than people think.
Its like a computer. I believed people who were seen as heroes aren't heroes. And so I dug deep into backend side of life and realised that the people who aren't so shiny are the ones who give you the perspectives. No one should be in prison because prisoners are the ones that get hurt by society and never had the chance to voice out. Society caused prisoners and prisons. I wished that humans were more properly handled.
Most homes don't feel like home to me. The real homes are deep in us.
Its funny. Last time I felt like the world was against me
Our lives is like a stage. The world knows what we do
People think they can get away with things. But the truth lies with people.
People know every single dirt and truth and doings. The world is smarter than people think.
Its like a computer. I believed people who were seen as heroes aren't heroes. And so I dug deep into backend side of life and realised that the people who aren't so shiny are the ones who give you the perspectives. No one should be in prison because prisoners are the ones that get hurt by society and never had the chance to voice out. Society caused prisoners and prisons. I wished that humans were more properly handled.
Most homes don't feel like home to me. The real homes are deep in us.
Saturday, October 22, 2016
Monday, October 17, 2016
Human love is a struggle. God's love is not. I think my existence is to bring love to people. I'm God's Angel. He changed me and evolved me to the person he wants me to be.
I was so lost in this world, listening to the negativity of people's comments about me. He gave me strength when I was at my weakest.
Its funny how facts become unreal. Even if it was real, God can just transform a person when he or she lets him to.
Its a senseless blog to people who don't believe in God but to me, everything I write makes so much sense to me.
I was so lost in this world, listening to the negativity of people's comments about me. He gave me strength when I was at my weakest.
Its funny how facts become unreal. Even if it was real, God can just transform a person when he or she lets him to.
Its a senseless blog to people who don't believe in God but to me, everything I write makes so much sense to me.
What am empty world it is. It truly is. The warmth disappeared when people started to fear. I don't envy the wealthy anymore coz their sufferings are equally as bad as us. The shrewd world we live in, dealing with life. God should be more involved in life but instead, looks and self absorption becomes glorified.
Saturday, October 15, 2016
People think that we are on this earth to attain more and more. Have humans ever thought that perhaps we were made human to share rather than to consume only?
Perhaps it was food and poverty that made us think that way. I felt like I was poorer than the poor kids in poverty countries when I was younger. The more you grow with God, the richer you are.
Perhaps it was food and poverty that made us think that way. I felt like I was poorer than the poor kids in poverty countries when I was younger. The more you grow with God, the richer you are.
Friday, October 14, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Sunday, October 9, 2016
I think I confuse men. Men are usually trying to find the right girl as their accessory, their social status. I dislike all that. I find it crap. I wanna be Tinkerbell for God.
People worship faces. Faces to me are old fashion. I rather look at the wall.
We are constantly living and earning a living to search for our real self and expression.
People worship faces. Faces to me are old fashion. I rather look at the wall.
We are constantly living and earning a living to search for our real self and expression.
Saturday, October 8, 2016
Monday, October 3, 2016
Saturday, October 1, 2016
I remembered the tree, the warmth from the floor. The love from the presents and the feeling in Korea. That was when I felt I was my real self. The Snowy weather outside and the numerous amount of snickers we ate in our car journey to the hotel where Michael Jackson stayed. That was the feeling I love. The feeling of me being understood. The weather in Singapore just doesn't suit my body. I perspire so much. I miss the feeling of being protected. I don't want to be a woman. I want to be a kid forever in the arms of a bigger being. I missed that feeling. Most people need a boyfriend to feel secure. Me? I miss the feeling of warmth surrounding me. I felt love last time. As I grow older, the love becomes superficial and fakey. I miss God. Thats what I miss.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
Monday, September 26, 2016
I have been silent for too long. I didn't know who I was and that made me change in different situations. I became art but rigid art. So rigid that people started to think I was that person that I wasn't.
The real me is someone who loves to give..
Art is what I became because life is ever changing.
I'm glad that God gave me a chance to play again. I fell from 1000 storeys but God saved me. He was Superman who made me realise that suffering is not permanent. Suffering is what people put into a person.
And then I realised all that I've gone through is human-ess
I put myself out there and finally realised that life is not meant to be so serious. Who cares what people think. I do care ironically but thats just because I love to create dialogues to change the world.
I'm blabbering away. U might read this or might not.
Mysteries are alive.
Dreams are reality
God doesn't want us to be rich for a reason.
We aren't ready to receive it.
The real me is someone who loves to give..
Art is what I became because life is ever changing.
I'm glad that God gave me a chance to play again. I fell from 1000 storeys but God saved me. He was Superman who made me realise that suffering is not permanent. Suffering is what people put into a person.
And then I realised all that I've gone through is human-ess
I put myself out there and finally realised that life is not meant to be so serious. Who cares what people think. I do care ironically but thats just because I love to create dialogues to change the world.
I'm blabbering away. U might read this or might not.
Mysteries are alive.
Dreams are reality
God doesn't want us to be rich for a reason.
We aren't ready to receive it.
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
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