I bought a new selfie stick and that is going to be my next favourite thing. :)
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Monday, January 29, 2018
Sunday, January 28, 2018
Recently I've had new students and I'm wondering to myself. What makes me excited other than work.
Clothing came to my mind. Now that I'll be busier with my work, I look forward to my wardrobe more.
I used to like walking around with my new clothes, imagining a lot.
Instead of just leaving it for off days, I've decided to buy more wearable pieces so that I can wear it when I'm teaching...
I told myself that I'll be cutting on shopping to save money. Now, I'll be giving myself a budget every month for clothing and the rest for saving.
One day...when I'm rich...I think I would still spend the most on clothing. Holidays open our eyes to the world but now, I rather just stay in Singapore and enjoy what we have here.
What do I really value in life...Most people like to party and have good food and company.
I'm asking myself now..what do I want out of life..
Firstly, to enjoy my existence.
Secondly, to enjoy innovation
I used to think that I should have gone into Fashion. But I'm pretty selfish...I want it all. I want my clothes to only be mine..Selfish me right?
Do you think I should start a Fashion blog as a hobby? :)
Saturday, January 27, 2018
God has blessed me with a job. When I was younger, I used to think to myself...How am I going to survive in this big world of ours. I knew that this world was not an easy route. The buildings in CBD area..I remembered mum drove by when I was little.
I see the extravagance of the world and wonder to myself, How is this tiny voice of mine going to survive....
I thank God that he paved a way for me, one that I still am thankful for...
I don't thrive in politics...I don't thrive in rigidity. So God knew that all along.
I had so much fear in me that the monsters came alive in this world of ours. I still think that monsters are real in this world (not literally) but if you don't disturb them, they won't disturb you.
Its like in the wild, there are all kinds of predators out there. If you don't do anything wrong, they won't eat you.
Humans have come a long way. It is pretty interesting how human life unfolds.
I see the extravagance of the world and wonder to myself, How is this tiny voice of mine going to survive....
I thank God that he paved a way for me, one that I still am thankful for...
I don't thrive in politics...I don't thrive in rigidity. So God knew that all along.
I had so much fear in me that the monsters came alive in this world of ours. I still think that monsters are real in this world (not literally) but if you don't disturb them, they won't disturb you.
Its like in the wild, there are all kinds of predators out there. If you don't do anything wrong, they won't eat you.
Humans have come a long way. It is pretty interesting how human life unfolds.
Thursday, January 25, 2018
You know...A lot happened to the world. War, famine, natural disasters. It will still happen and is still happening
If God is good, why are there famines and natural disasters.
That kept me thinking that most people are lost in this world. They follow what they think is happiness.
Happiness to most people is finding someone they love. I then question myself..why then so many divorces and anger, hatred in this world.
Without the devil, they weren't be goodness in this world too.
The devil is getting everyone have the same thoughts so that it is easier to run them.
God on the other hand is NOT that.
Everyone wants to be popular in this world and those people that follow blindly to be popular all have the same shared thinking because they want the same things.
Most people who talk about me think that by getting into the hot books of me, they will get the attention from the guys. You know gossips spread like wildfire. Sometimes the train is really quiet and you hear a conversation. When the conversation is a hot topic, everyone is listening to it because there is nothing else to do.
Most people like juicy stuff to colour their life.
Entertainment I felt is another word for consumerism. Most people like to consume music and content.
The world is full of content because God knows that humans are always wanting this and that so he has to please everyone because he love his children.
Whatever it is, I believe that you get your wishes in this world. Your desires are usually met in this world even if it is not good desires.
God usually grant people's wishes I felt
The only thing that he doesn't give to the world is his lambs and believers.
If God is good, why are there famines and natural disasters.
That kept me thinking that most people are lost in this world. They follow what they think is happiness.
Happiness to most people is finding someone they love. I then question myself..why then so many divorces and anger, hatred in this world.
Without the devil, they weren't be goodness in this world too.
The devil is getting everyone have the same thoughts so that it is easier to run them.
God on the other hand is NOT that.
Everyone wants to be popular in this world and those people that follow blindly to be popular all have the same shared thinking because they want the same things.
Most people who talk about me think that by getting into the hot books of me, they will get the attention from the guys. You know gossips spread like wildfire. Sometimes the train is really quiet and you hear a conversation. When the conversation is a hot topic, everyone is listening to it because there is nothing else to do.
Most people like juicy stuff to colour their life.
Entertainment I felt is another word for consumerism. Most people like to consume music and content.
The world is full of content because God knows that humans are always wanting this and that so he has to please everyone because he love his children.
Whatever it is, I believe that you get your wishes in this world. Your desires are usually met in this world even if it is not good desires.
God usually grant people's wishes I felt
The only thing that he doesn't give to the world is his lambs and believers.
Saturday, January 20, 2018
I felt like the world is slowly losing its charm.
There is less good music in the world right now I felt.
You know, without music...appearance suddenly seem boring.
Music makes everything look more beautiful.
I wish that there will be more good music.
I wish that there is more excitement and buzz in this world right now.
I used to think that the world had so much to offer.
Without God, there is nothing in this world but just an instagram of no content and story.
Everyone is so focused on looking good and most people think that by looking good and behaving ethically and rightly or (wrongly), they will be attractive and everything will look good.
The fact is that without music, all the money goes down.
Makeup rely on culture
culture rely on music
Attractiveness rely on good music on the dancefloor to attract the other
It is all interlinked
Without music, all fails.
There is less good music in the world right now I felt.
You know, without music...appearance suddenly seem boring.
Music makes everything look more beautiful.
I wish that there will be more good music.
I wish that there is more excitement and buzz in this world right now.
I used to think that the world had so much to offer.
Without God, there is nothing in this world but just an instagram of no content and story.
Everyone is so focused on looking good and most people think that by looking good and behaving ethically and rightly or (wrongly), they will be attractive and everything will look good.
The fact is that without music, all the money goes down.
Makeup rely on culture
culture rely on music
Attractiveness rely on good music on the dancefloor to attract the other
It is all interlinked
Without music, all fails.
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Sometimes I felt like the love game is like casino. People are placing their bets on people to see who can get this person or that person.
They see each other's worth through their looks, money and lifestyle.
I think that the love game should have new rules. The rules to me doesn't seem like healthy rules
It shouldn't be about how much you're worth and how pretty or handsome you are. That is an unfair game. It should be about attracting your kind.
You know when humans say other humans are ugly. It is so wrong. It is just that they don't understand other types of 'looks' so it is their ignorance that caused them to think that way.
Everyone is beautiful.
We have to accept that so stop envying each other or envying superstars.
They see each other's worth through their looks, money and lifestyle.
I think that the love game should have new rules. The rules to me doesn't seem like healthy rules
It shouldn't be about how much you're worth and how pretty or handsome you are. That is an unfair game. It should be about attracting your kind.
You know when humans say other humans are ugly. It is so wrong. It is just that they don't understand other types of 'looks' so it is their ignorance that caused them to think that way.
Everyone is beautiful.
We have to accept that so stop envying each other or envying superstars.
Sunday, January 14, 2018
I already can sniff that 2018 is going to be a busy work year.
Students have increased.
This is my chance to build up my savings. I felt like last year was a year of wasting my savings away. I had to learn lessons so that I don't make them again. 2017 was a year of making mistakes.
This year, no more excuses already. I'm going to turn 30 already so its time to be responsible.
As Chinese new year is coming, I just pray that everyone who have good hearts will have good health and good prosperity.
I pray for more innovation in the world
I also wish that the world will have an equal battlefield of chances to start a life.
I have always felt like I have not lived a life. I think God made me feel that way because he doesn't want me to settle for anything less.
Most people settle for their love ones, a human to be with them for the rest of their lives.
That is the right thing to do because it is the only thing that we can see, humans...and humans understand humans.
I'm pretty different. I don't want to settle for humans. Humans are there to interact and talk but I truly feel that we should settle for God. God is the only presence that cares for us. He doesn't show himself but if you believe in him, he will show signs to help you in life.
I do believe that there are trespassers in life that help us grow. But I call them trespassers (positive ones I hope to think)
The kingdom of God is real because then why do people care so much about likability and popularity. There is sure to be some kind of system in this world. Like animals, we all belong to different kinds.
Consumers are people who spread the word of God. Messengers they are
Believers are people who lead their life blindly according to the word of God
Who am I? I think that I am God's sheep.
A sheep is someone who walks with him but she does not know what kind of trouble she sometimes faces. She just walks and learns from her downfalls, knocks the wall, gets back up. She is not intelligent but learns from her mistakes to make sure she does not hit the wall again.
Students have increased.
This is my chance to build up my savings. I felt like last year was a year of wasting my savings away. I had to learn lessons so that I don't make them again. 2017 was a year of making mistakes.
This year, no more excuses already. I'm going to turn 30 already so its time to be responsible.
As Chinese new year is coming, I just pray that everyone who have good hearts will have good health and good prosperity.
I pray for more innovation in the world
I also wish that the world will have an equal battlefield of chances to start a life.
I have always felt like I have not lived a life. I think God made me feel that way because he doesn't want me to settle for anything less.
Most people settle for their love ones, a human to be with them for the rest of their lives.
That is the right thing to do because it is the only thing that we can see, humans...and humans understand humans.
I'm pretty different. I don't want to settle for humans. Humans are there to interact and talk but I truly feel that we should settle for God. God is the only presence that cares for us. He doesn't show himself but if you believe in him, he will show signs to help you in life.
I do believe that there are trespassers in life that help us grow. But I call them trespassers (positive ones I hope to think)
The kingdom of God is real because then why do people care so much about likability and popularity. There is sure to be some kind of system in this world. Like animals, we all belong to different kinds.
Consumers are people who spread the word of God. Messengers they are
Believers are people who lead their life blindly according to the word of God
Who am I? I think that I am God's sheep.
A sheep is someone who walks with him but she does not know what kind of trouble she sometimes faces. She just walks and learns from her downfalls, knocks the wall, gets back up. She is not intelligent but learns from her mistakes to make sure she does not hit the wall again.
Thursday, January 11, 2018
You know, when I don't eat...I get hypo and dizzy. I'm really thankful that I have food to eat everyday. I will die if I lived in the jungle.
Humans eat animals and plants etc...I'm really very thankful that I get to eat these. Animals didn't do anything wrong to me and yet I get to eat them so that I can have energy. I'm really thankful that I get to survive through that ..
I was eating Hokkien mee today and felt so much better after that, like energized.
The simple pleasures of life, we sometimes take it for granted.
Now that my work allows me to eat more easily, (I don't need to wait till a certain time to eat lunch), I'm really thankful for that too because I get hypo when I'm hungry.
I just have this feeling that my blog don't make sense to many people because some of the things I write seems too out of the ordinary. You don't need to get every single thing I write because it can be poetry at times.. :)
You know, people see celebrities..living the high life, chasing their dreams etc... It seems like the ideal life to live. Whats more important to me is a place to live. A place to live itself requires our whole life to earn to be able to have.
The dream ironically is just to have a nice house and clothes and perhaps to some, kids. But most people in this world don't even have the simple things we need in life.
I'm than thinking to myself how backward the world really is, maybe because there is too much emphasis on systems and hierarchies and control that we, ordinary people who want to rise up will forever be struggling even if we have the brains for it.
I sometimes question what makes people more superior than others. The more clever you are, the more superior? I really hope to think so.
I think God needs to be more involve in our daily lives in order for more good changes to happen to humanity. What do you think?
Humans eat animals and plants etc...I'm really very thankful that I get to eat these. Animals didn't do anything wrong to me and yet I get to eat them so that I can have energy. I'm really thankful that I get to survive through that ..
I was eating Hokkien mee today and felt so much better after that, like energized.
The simple pleasures of life, we sometimes take it for granted.
Now that my work allows me to eat more easily, (I don't need to wait till a certain time to eat lunch), I'm really thankful for that too because I get hypo when I'm hungry.
I just have this feeling that my blog don't make sense to many people because some of the things I write seems too out of the ordinary. You don't need to get every single thing I write because it can be poetry at times.. :)
You know, people see celebrities..living the high life, chasing their dreams etc... It seems like the ideal life to live. Whats more important to me is a place to live. A place to live itself requires our whole life to earn to be able to have.
The dream ironically is just to have a nice house and clothes and perhaps to some, kids. But most people in this world don't even have the simple things we need in life.
I'm than thinking to myself how backward the world really is, maybe because there is too much emphasis on systems and hierarchies and control that we, ordinary people who want to rise up will forever be struggling even if we have the brains for it.
I sometimes question what makes people more superior than others. The more clever you are, the more superior? I really hope to think so.
I think God needs to be more involve in our daily lives in order for more good changes to happen to humanity. What do you think?
Friday, January 5, 2018
Back in Secondary school days (Neo prints ) 2002-2004
Me in 2010 with a Vietnamese friend, 'Khoa' for dinner in Ho Chi Minh City.
This was me after poly days, 2011 to be exact..I wore big spectacles way before it became an 'in' thing...But most people at that time found it hideous. Haha.. and thats my church friend, 'Lynette'. She's in USA now.
Funny how ugly becomes in again...
Me in 2012 in Turkey
Me in 2015 in China
This is me now haha..My mum took this pic for me..
This was me back in poly days with my turtle shell specs. That was my good friend Denise who walked through with me during my darkest days in poly.
In Singapore poly, I was a loner in school. Everyone thought I was the odd one...and people just didn't like me for whatever reasons.
I was flat chested then...I think puberty came later on me in my physique.
I had no power whatsoever. I knew there would be a long road to justice because I didn't have any sort of 'power'.
I knew that by growing, people will bound to dislike me because they will forever see me in that 'negative' light back in poly days.
I remembered...I didn't want to suck up to the chairperson of my class and I was disliked by the whole class because I didn't want to be in her good books.
I stood firm to my own being despite being 'talked' about for sure.
People once in a while will talk and bring about your past, hoping you would take a big plunge in your mental health. But that is what I want to stress to people who were once mocked by bullies..
They will set traps for you..who knows..even stalk you and plant traps that make you go back to your past 'mental' health. They will do whatever it takes to bring you down because then they will rise again..
They have no power over you unless you let them into your mind.
People don't change. Their heads will only grow bigger and they only hope the worst for you because you made them look bad.
I didn't choose to make them feel bad..My situation in life was that I was vulnerable to bullies. I have a very expressive face. God made me that way.
So for people who get stomped by bullies, I wish that you be strong and trust only yourself. Be strong and know that God is with you and listening to your 'help'
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
My blog: what is the purpose of writing? to Boast? Some people may interpret that way....
No..its just to air my thoughts and to share how proud of the different types of people I met and my life stories.
Come on, if its a blog to boast..What about Instagram and insta stories..don't tell me you don't use them.
You know..when you aren't in someone's good books, whatever you do will piss them off.
Its like you are either on the dark side or the bright side..
I figured...there will always be people not in the likes of you because you fail to meet their good books or maybe you fail to suck up or make them feel good about themselves.
My friend will say to me last time...why do you care so much of what people think of you?
I actually don't care what people think of me...I want to more be invisible.. People's thoughts of me are not true so I care what people misunderstand of my actions coz I don't want people thinking wrong thoughts of people...The wrongness of thoughts spread like wildfire.
You know..our sins are wrong thoughts...spread like a disease. I think we sometimes need to unlearn thoughts
I think the future world will be perhaps an eraser of thoughts after every year. People need to erase habits.
Humans perhaps become like a commodity once we are rigid with our behaviours and thoughts..
Our life should be like a virtual game..As simple and fun as a virtual game. Thats all we need in life..to enjoy our existence.
No..its just to air my thoughts and to share how proud of the different types of people I met and my life stories.
Come on, if its a blog to boast..What about Instagram and insta stories..don't tell me you don't use them.
You know..when you aren't in someone's good books, whatever you do will piss them off.
Its like you are either on the dark side or the bright side..
I figured...there will always be people not in the likes of you because you fail to meet their good books or maybe you fail to suck up or make them feel good about themselves.
My friend will say to me last time...why do you care so much of what people think of you?
I actually don't care what people think of me...I want to more be invisible.. People's thoughts of me are not true so I care what people misunderstand of my actions coz I don't want people thinking wrong thoughts of people...The wrongness of thoughts spread like wildfire.
You know..our sins are wrong thoughts...spread like a disease. I think we sometimes need to unlearn thoughts
I think the future world will be perhaps an eraser of thoughts after every year. People need to erase habits.
Humans perhaps become like a commodity once we are rigid with our behaviours and thoughts..
Our life should be like a virtual game..As simple and fun as a virtual game. Thats all we need in life..to enjoy our existence.
Tuesday, January 2, 2018
Angelina! Had a night outing with Ange today. She treated me to Ramen from 'Ajisen Ramen', set meal . So nice of her!! :D
I brought her to my usual hangout place (Like real haha), 'Marina Bay Sands' , 'Sweet Spot' for dessert.
Oh that above is a real chocolate sculpture. How cool is that!!
We had Earl Grey Chocolate cake. It was yummy!!!
Angelina is in 'Manulife' now. If you need to buy any financial products, you can let me know. :)
I will happily give her number to you heheeee..
Wah...She bought a Fendi bag that was so 'yummy' and 'eye-candy'. Haha.. I don't think I will ever own a Fendi bag.
Remember? I wanna save for house. Heheee..
Angelina just came back from a Europe trip to Slovenia, Croatia and Bosnia...(and other places too).. We both went there during the November, December period. How coincidental right?!
We both had great times during band days. She was the greatest crash cymbal player. As for me, I was more a snare drum and xylophone player. haha
I remembered.. We had band exchanges with St hildas, Greenridge Secondary and even Dao nan Secondary (my cousin's school). St Hilda's '7th night of July' won them gold and we had to learn from them.
We had silver medal I remembered for SYF.
More great times with this girl!! :D
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