My Testimony

You know, I was born a normal kid, just hairy on my arms. I had this vulnerability since young because I was a little different coz of my hairyness.

I was the odd and quiet one in school and always didn't want to shine in school because I didn't want any sort of limelight. I also knew girls could be really bitchy. I didn't want to outshine anyone. The only thing I outshone was music.

I remembered my teacher thinking that it wasn't me and it was my close friend, 'Brenda' who was the one who was shining in the band concert. I was one of the two players playing the xylophone for a solo with the whole band for one of the songs, 'Happy Mallets' in Victoria Concert hall with Mr Andy Sim conducting our school ijband.

I was struggling in school a lot and was bullied by my peers coz of how hairy I was. I didn't wanna do anything about my hairyness coz I was so focused on my struggle on studies, I cared nothing less.

Today I happened to chance upon a friend's shared post on how this girl suffered from a bone disease that affect her anatomy of her arms. She has a pretty face but had this disease and she is always ashamed of it.

I'm not saying that I'm ashamed of my body but it played a huge role in my confidence level and I realised from this shared facebook post that I am not the only one who feels like different from ordinary people with looks that are 'accepted'

Sometimes, I wonder why it is the bad eggs that get all the limelight and the good ones, they suffer and didn't even harm anyone.

There are also many people who take advantage of their looks and 'fashion' sense to make you feel small. They think they can bully just because they have more means in their 'exterior'.

I figured pitying myself was not the way to go. I used to think how badly treated people would treat me because I was not the 'hot' one or the trophy girl that everyone is eyeing at.

God healed me. He healed my backbone. I used to hunch alot and he repaired and fixed me coz of my faith. He did many wonders to me and that was how bullies slowly shunned away.

Have faith. I used to have this fear of my own body so I enhanced everything around me. My fear was overpowering my life.

Don't let fear control your life. Let love spread like a temple.