The Blah Blah Blah of the day

Humans are secrets, God put secrets into every human being because he believes in secrets and not boasting.

I used to get bored with life because I didn't want anything from anyone. When I realised the gift of giving, my world changed.

I used to be selfish like everyone, thinking I'm the best and not thinking of others. I was self-centered.

I think I started to change when I start being quiet. I felt like I had no mouth with my friends around. There is nothing to talk about because during school days, I was struggling just to get pass my results. There was no such thing as leisure for me. I was just focused on studies fullstop.

The only thing that cheered me up during my school days were mostly Music and bubble tea and good friends.

I was struggling in all ways during my teens. I felt like there was so much to handle that I didn't grow physically. I was super selfless in myself physically.

I see all my friends being so pretty and I used to admire my surroundings so much. I was wondering to myself when it would be my turn to look like who Emilie really looks like.

You know when I was a baby, I feared that I looked ugly because I was afraid the world will see me in a bad light. I prayed that I wasn't ugly. When people looked at me and smiled, perhaps I was comforted.

I didn't look at the mirror much when I was young because the mirror was too high. Even now, I don't look much at the mirror, which sometimes explains my messy hair or when you see a sticker on my face (Student's stickers for piano) or when you see a stain on my face that I'm unaware of.

I think the reason why I'm sharing all these is that most people don't get me because I'm not a norm kinda girl. I like to think that I'm someone you can learn something from.