Monday, February 27, 2017
Sunday, February 26, 2017
Saturday, February 25, 2017
Friday, February 24, 2017
This song was played when I was in primary school going for an excursion to Science Centre. That was the first time I felt God's love. I didn't even know who the singers were or what the song title was. I was touched at that every moment and I felt love.
I was confused because I thought you needed a person to make you feel love. I felt love just through this song.
'You are the person to judge what love really is.'
The other party is just an instrument to make you feel that way. We are all about feelings.
Sometimes I feel like I am Pikachu. Every I go, there are people. Perhaps its just a Singapore life. Everywhere you go, its like a Poke stop.
Sometimes I feel like Pikachu attracts a varied number of people because they are looking for their soulmate. I feel like I'm like a magnet that attracts people who is looking for that something.
Because I love to look at people. God does the rest of the work.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control of my character. Its like I change in different situations even without wanting to try. I just evolve into a character, something like how Pokemons have different breeds of evolve.
You know, people who critic me are horrible players of pokemon. They don't know how to catch Pokemons. They only know how to catch rattatas and pidgeys. Remember 'SSsss..'
(all the snakes only know how to catch rats hehe)
The real players embrace pikachu. The real players know whats going on in every Pokestop.
Next time when I'm in alone, observe whats going on around me. If there is nothing going on means I'm out of the 'Pokemon go' game hehe.
I need my breaks too :P
Sometimes I feel like Pikachu attracts a varied number of people because they are looking for their soulmate. I feel like I'm like a magnet that attracts people who is looking for that something.
Because I love to look at people. God does the rest of the work.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control of my character. Its like I change in different situations even without wanting to try. I just evolve into a character, something like how Pokemons have different breeds of evolve.
You know, people who critic me are horrible players of pokemon. They don't know how to catch Pokemons. They only know how to catch rattatas and pidgeys. Remember 'SSsss..'
(all the snakes only know how to catch rats hehe)
The real players embrace pikachu. The real players know whats going on in every Pokestop.
Next time when I'm in alone, observe whats going on around me. If there is nothing going on means I'm out of the 'Pokemon go' game hehe.
I need my breaks too :P
Thursday, February 23, 2017
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
With my current vocation, I realised that kids start to build their ego as they grow older and because of that they go sidetrack because they think they are worth more than others.
It is true that everyone is priceless (worth too much) but ego makes a person cold and looks down on others
I used to be bullied when I was in Secondary school and I find that kind of ego nuances with some of my kids already even when they are so young.
But I can't do anything about it but accept that these children have to learn the hard way one day.
I rather be bullied than be bold in losing my pathway.
I don't blame those girls who bullied me. They did put me into a spiral of actions and self esteem problems. Like Jesus, he was ridiculed by the people around him. He died in a negative light to intellects and many other people.
You know Jesus was the son of God but God did keep another soul that was kept in secret. His lamb. Jesus took the first step and because of that, people mocked at him like nobody's business.
God is not stupid. He does not just let the world mock at the good people forever. He has plans that change the whole game of evil vs good.
I used to think that all good people have to be like Jesus. It is true that good people need to suffer but it does not mean that things won't turn around.
I believe that God is doing his works at this very moment. You know, I think God is so sad because he needs to end the world eventually by himself. I want to be with him till the very end of time because Earth was just a place for his children to play.
Where did I come from? I always asked that question.
I was this lost soul in the universe. God picked me because I wanted so badly to be in a better place. While everyone was mustering energy from him, I didn't even want a dust from him. I just wanted to be away from every planet and soul.
It is true that everyone is priceless (worth too much) but ego makes a person cold and looks down on others
I used to be bullied when I was in Secondary school and I find that kind of ego nuances with some of my kids already even when they are so young.
But I can't do anything about it but accept that these children have to learn the hard way one day.
I rather be bullied than be bold in losing my pathway.
I don't blame those girls who bullied me. They did put me into a spiral of actions and self esteem problems. Like Jesus, he was ridiculed by the people around him. He died in a negative light to intellects and many other people.
You know Jesus was the son of God but God did keep another soul that was kept in secret. His lamb. Jesus took the first step and because of that, people mocked at him like nobody's business.
God is not stupid. He does not just let the world mock at the good people forever. He has plans that change the whole game of evil vs good.
I used to think that all good people have to be like Jesus. It is true that good people need to suffer but it does not mean that things won't turn around.
I believe that God is doing his works at this very moment. You know, I think God is so sad because he needs to end the world eventually by himself. I want to be with him till the very end of time because Earth was just a place for his children to play.
Where did I come from? I always asked that question.
I was this lost soul in the universe. God picked me because I wanted so badly to be in a better place. While everyone was mustering energy from him, I didn't even want a dust from him. I just wanted to be away from every planet and soul.
Monday, February 20, 2017
Saturday, February 18, 2017
Last time I thought I was the salt of the earth.
It turned out that I was the most messed up girl in the world.
People put themselves so high.
Sometimes we need a big scolding to realise how our thoughts are so deadly
When I realised that, I realise how stubborn I am with God that it makes people wonder why I'm so un-understandable.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm not like a normal human being, have a nice boyfriend, nice safe everything.
Instead, I chose the dangerous path.
But I know that God wants me to take this path because I was the stubborn soul who refused to go into any body except for this one Emilie.
I was this stubborn soul who just wanted the presence of God and feared anything earthly
I was the soul that made the most mistakes.
It turned out that I was the most messed up girl in the world.
People put themselves so high.
Sometimes we need a big scolding to realise how our thoughts are so deadly
When I realised that, I realise how stubborn I am with God that it makes people wonder why I'm so un-understandable.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm not like a normal human being, have a nice boyfriend, nice safe everything.
Instead, I chose the dangerous path.
But I know that God wants me to take this path because I was the stubborn soul who refused to go into any body except for this one Emilie.
I was this stubborn soul who just wanted the presence of God and feared anything earthly
I was the soul that made the most mistakes.
I pray that my foolishness will not be backlashed by people around me.
The priest said that in order to achieve wisdom, there needs to be foolishness.
I pray that my love for people will radiate so that people will be loved.
I pray that goodness will prevail.
I thank God that love is still around
I pray that God will guide me.
In God's eyes, there is no law or jail, there is only individuals who have gone through a hard time. God forgives because history is suffering. Everyday is a blessing because we are alleviating the weight of the world.
Soon, the weight will be transferred to technology and humans will have a happier life, focusing on the right things in life.
If you have the right focus, the rest of your fears go away.
The priest said that in order to achieve wisdom, there needs to be foolishness.
I pray that my love for people will radiate so that people will be loved.
I pray that goodness will prevail.
I thank God that love is still around
I pray that God will guide me.
In God's eyes, there is no law or jail, there is only individuals who have gone through a hard time. God forgives because history is suffering. Everyday is a blessing because we are alleviating the weight of the world.
Soon, the weight will be transferred to technology and humans will have a happier life, focusing on the right things in life.
If you have the right focus, the rest of your fears go away.
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
I was the girl whose presence was at the Charles Bridge. I saw the world from the top. Failed love because we have not met, perhaps when we are in heaven we will reunite and we can express our friendship once again. Life, a ground of all sorts. I see that you saw answers.
Me too, I was there too. I wish you well.
Thursday, February 9, 2017
Caroline (My Primary school best friend)
Rongjun (My IRC Chat friend) Rrrrrjjjjjj (Your nickname:something like that) hehe
Michelle (She was someone I admired since primary 2 to primary 6)
Clarissa (The cool girl from netball who has a good heart)
Inka (The Wealthy Indonesian girl whom I had good times with Clarissa and Audrey gang)
Brenda (The Saviour of my Secondary school days)
The final 3 who stayed with me during my confused days. From left: Rachel, Gladys, Denise
Wednesday, February 8, 2017
I also had another path I had during my teenage days. The church times.
I remembered some guys (I know I was fugly then so I rather be a mice )
Way younger (Secondary 1 or 2 ), I remembered Christian Long. I remembered it was raining and I was standing near you. You had an umbrella with you and I was just waiting for my brother or sth like that
Later during Confirmation camp, I remembered the Sim brothers, the cool Paul, Spencer, Mark gang (whom I admired) and the facil senior gang like David, Daniel, Angeline, Clement gang.
Later in my life, I remembered the next generation gang which is Matthias etc.. I actually had a boyfriend from church and he was called 'Aaron'
I've never talked about him on my blogs. He is actually quite a decent guy but I did not love him. He was my first boyfriend.
I remembered Andrew Loh, Lynette, Kimberly Lum who one day brought me to the upper room where I met Brandon Lee (whose sister is super pretty) (also Looked up to her then)
Brandon was a crush I had back then. Also, Paul. They were cool then. Now, everyone's leading their personal lives.
I remembered some guys (I know I was fugly then so I rather be a mice )
Way younger (Secondary 1 or 2 ), I remembered Christian Long. I remembered it was raining and I was standing near you. You had an umbrella with you and I was just waiting for my brother or sth like that
Later during Confirmation camp, I remembered the Sim brothers, the cool Paul, Spencer, Mark gang (whom I admired) and the facil senior gang like David, Daniel, Angeline, Clement gang.
Later in my life, I remembered the next generation gang which is Matthias etc.. I actually had a boyfriend from church and he was called 'Aaron'
I've never talked about him on my blogs. He is actually quite a decent guy but I did not love him. He was my first boyfriend.
I remembered Andrew Loh, Lynette, Kimberly Lum who one day brought me to the upper room where I met Brandon Lee (whose sister is super pretty) (also Looked up to her then)
Brandon was a crush I had back then. Also, Paul. They were cool then. Now, everyone's leading their personal lives.
There was some goodness in IJ. There were some angels who protected me throughout my convent journey. People like Caroline, Clarissa, Denise, Gladys and Rachel, Brenda and my crushes like Michelle gave me the drive to move.
I constantly had bad headaches in school due to morning journeys in the bumpy buses. Ij band also added romanticism into the air.
I remembered the Irc days and Junction 8, HDB hub and movies in Cineleisure. I remembered the cool gangs like the Kimberly Lum gang, Clarissa and lily like Effie, Crystal, Bonnie, Matilda gang and even the althelete gang (Carrie, Melanie gang). I looked up to them a lot. I also remembered the bubble tea shop at Braddell Social centre. Clarissa introduced me to 'Quickly'. 'Grapefruit green tea' was the first bubble tea I had and it was heavenly. I never tasted such a good drink. It was Clarissa who brought me into the cool society. Inka also had a really nice house at Yongan Park. Knowing her was like knowing a taste of the lifestyle of the rich. It was one of the best times knowing these people that I mentioned.
I also remembered the netball gang like Sandy, Johanna Kah Yee. They were cool and also the Nicole gang who I suspect was the root behind the reason of my downfall initially. But at the end, I think they realised that I was harmless to their wealth.
I was a mice in school because I saw so much greatness in all the chiobus(pretty girls). If you see me looking at chiobus, its because I admire them when I was in primary and secondary school.
I remembered the Dance club people like Dawn Koh who joined our school much later and the pretty seniors from 1986 batch. They made Dancing so cool. I remembered songs like 'Butterfly', songs by Jennifer Lopez and Janet Jackson, and ABBA played during dance club. I was the worst dancer but there were so many good dancers.
I saw the world in IJ but the real world was much worse. I wasn't prepared for it.
I constantly had bad headaches in school due to morning journeys in the bumpy buses. Ij band also added romanticism into the air.
I remembered the Irc days and Junction 8, HDB hub and movies in Cineleisure. I remembered the cool gangs like the Kimberly Lum gang, Clarissa and lily like Effie, Crystal, Bonnie, Matilda gang and even the althelete gang (Carrie, Melanie gang). I looked up to them a lot. I also remembered the bubble tea shop at Braddell Social centre. Clarissa introduced me to 'Quickly'. 'Grapefruit green tea' was the first bubble tea I had and it was heavenly. I never tasted such a good drink. It was Clarissa who brought me into the cool society. Inka also had a really nice house at Yongan Park. Knowing her was like knowing a taste of the lifestyle of the rich. It was one of the best times knowing these people that I mentioned.
I also remembered the netball gang like Sandy, Johanna Kah Yee. They were cool and also the Nicole gang who I suspect was the root behind the reason of my downfall initially. But at the end, I think they realised that I was harmless to their wealth.
I was a mice in school because I saw so much greatness in all the chiobus(pretty girls). If you see me looking at chiobus, its because I admire them when I was in primary and secondary school.
I remembered the Dance club people like Dawn Koh who joined our school much later and the pretty seniors from 1986 batch. They made Dancing so cool. I remembered songs like 'Butterfly', songs by Jennifer Lopez and Janet Jackson, and ABBA played during dance club. I was the worst dancer but there were so many good dancers.
I saw the world in IJ but the real world was much worse. I wasn't prepared for it.
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
People who love to irritate me live to use the 's' word. There is a history to that. It started off with some mean girls in my poly class who wanted to destroy me.
I treat them as snakes, 'sssss' a warning of danger around me. People might realise the quietness of trains recently. Maybe now you might know one reason why.
These people want attention or want something out of a situation. Its not all bad. I think in these part of the world, most people take things for granted. People seek so much of people, unhappy and keep wanting attention.
People who seek power and realised the root of what I just said would understand the dangers of selfishness.
We will be doomed if these snakes run the whole nation. All the mices will be eaten up. I just happen to be God's mice.
I treat them as snakes, 'sssss' a warning of danger around me. People might realise the quietness of trains recently. Maybe now you might know one reason why.
These people want attention or want something out of a situation. Its not all bad. I think in these part of the world, most people take things for granted. People seek so much of people, unhappy and keep wanting attention.
People who seek power and realised the root of what I just said would understand the dangers of selfishness.
We will be doomed if these snakes run the whole nation. All the mices will be eaten up. I just happen to be God's mice.
Monday, February 6, 2017
You know some people look at me with the killer eyes, I look back at them.
These people give me a bad feeling
Sometimes when your surroundings seems all jolly, I on the other hand seem to be handling the dangers of power.
I'm not afraid of anyone.
I'm only afraid of God
Ps: There was this guy starring at me during a wedding dinner with danger eyes today. He starred at me for easily 30 secs. Perhaps he thought I was afraid of him because he had a tattoo on his left hand, near his fingers if I'm not wrong. He had a wife/gf beside him whose back faced me.
I pray that these people don't harm me. I'm just a girl in a woman's body.
These people give me a bad feeling
Sometimes when your surroundings seems all jolly, I on the other hand seem to be handling the dangers of power.
I'm not afraid of anyone.
I'm only afraid of God
Ps: There was this guy starring at me during a wedding dinner with danger eyes today. He starred at me for easily 30 secs. Perhaps he thought I was afraid of him because he had a tattoo on his left hand, near his fingers if I'm not wrong. He had a wife/gf beside him whose back faced me.
I pray that these people don't harm me. I'm just a girl in a woman's body.
Saturday, February 4, 2017
Wednesday, February 1, 2017
Most of the times, people like to associate themselves with something. I couldn't associate myself with anyone. Now that I saw some answers, I thank God.
The war will continue till perhaps there is the end of poverty. But one thing I can say is that the good news will spread, spread till the ends of the earth.
'People say Jesus died for us. I think the world died for Jesus. ' says Emilie
The war will continue till perhaps there is the end of poverty. But one thing I can say is that the good news will spread, spread till the ends of the earth.
'People say Jesus died for us. I think the world died for Jesus. ' says Emilie
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