You know Sg looks so modern, advanced and nice in the exterior. I feel like my life is kinda like overrated in its exterior. Deep inside me, I feel like I don't deserve such a nice environment, as if I was not meant to enjoy the infrastructure of Sg.
I don't think its gotta do with my self esteem but more of where my soul came from. I feel that I should be living a life of necessity and the rest should be used for my music and for people who truly needs the wealth.
I think I have to promise myself to cut on spending money outside so much. I feel like my adventure on my off days are not well deserved. There are people who don't even have food on the table and here I am outside finding the meaning of life. I don't think its wrong to discover oneself but I think that perhaps my life was meant to be more focus and less distracted by the exteriors of the world.
I need to make a promise to God that one day when the wealth pours into my life that I have to spend it wisely and responsibly. No wasting of $ in restaurants, no entertainment and no going to MBS to feel wealthy all the time.
I'm not sure why I like going to MBS. Maybe its an escapism of reality. I'm not sure. I have to make a promise to God that I only spend on my Music, eat simply and focus on my own personal growth.
I wish to grow inside. I have to focus on:
gratitude
No staycations for me
Once my money start to build up, I have to make sure that that goes to my future.
1. To save for a roof on my head.
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