Theres no such thing as love in this Dictionary

You know, most of my 'friends' always end up turning their backs on me.
I have never once thought of myself. Everything was for the people around me but I end up getting all the shit all the sinners do and say to me.
They get all the fun and throw all the shit to good people like me.
I really have nothing to lose if God brings me back to another dimension.
Sinners, I won't be my friendly self anymore.
You can do all you want to me, say things about me.
But all those lovers I had all ended up turning sour.
Its really sad. Those people who don't deserve the fun end up having all the things they want and they throw shit to people like me thinking they can hide all their sins.
Children will end up learning all the bad habits of the world and history will repeat itself.
God is the only friend to me right now.
Sinners think they can use me because I'm friendly.
I won't be friendly anymore especially those 'fun' people who play with people's emotions and people who are 'cool'